Welp, about 7 years have gone by since I started asking girls out. Watching me try to figure out dating for the past 7 or 8 years has been like watching me kiss a brick wall. It’s been the source of many depressions over the years (Junior year of college shines as the best example of this), and I just cannot take the pain and loneliness anymore. Here is an aspect of my life that has not so much as progressed at all since I started. This is very hard for me to admit, but I don’t have any reason to think it will progress or improve in the near future. Therefore, I’m shutting the door.
As hard as it’s going to be, I will no longer focus on finding a relationship until further notice. To be quite honest, I’m not even sure what I’m looking for, anymore. I can’t find what I’m looking for if I don’t even know, myself, what I’m looking for. All I’ve been doing for the past near-decade has been engaging in a wild goose chase. I need to take a step back from dating and reconsider what I’m after before continuing on with it.
BUT DO NOT LET THIS DISCOURAGE THE REST OF YOU! If you can find it, great! I’m happy for you. But I need to find myself before I can find a relationship. I’m only writing this in the hopes that some of you will find a lesson in all this. For now, I’m going to be focusing more on getting into Grad School at Drexel University. I hope you all can understand why I’m doing this. It’s time I accept my failure in this aspect of my life and work toward a solution to keep it from being a failure in the future (whenever that will be).